This is the only place, where I can truly pour out my feelings. I couldn't control myself anymore. My emotions have run amok. Sometimes I cry out for help, I pleaded and pleaded. I really hope there's someone out there who could help me. Who could give me a helping hand, assure me and tell me that everything will be okay. A warm hug that chases all the problems away. All the sorrows and pain. Every day, every night all I do is cry. Cry and cry till my eyes got red and swollen. Till I felt the immense pain physically. Till I got tired. and I went to bed. No, no one will ever understand how I feel. How all this while i've acted strong. Strong enough to protect me on the surface. Strong enough till the barrier I created shuts everyone out, probably myself too. I feel like I'm in a cage. A cage I've been struggling to get out of. All I do is to struggle, struggle till i'm tired. Till tired I kept going on. I couldn't get free no matter how much I struggle. My heart feels like its burning, burning intensely. I feel like its been crumpled, its been crushed. I feel like I could no longer breathe. I felt so terrible, that terrible no longer becomes a word. I became so scared. So paranoid. I became so helpless, all of a sudden. I feel like no one's gonna help. No, they can't do a thing. They don't know me, they probably don't even know my story, let alone the title. They don't know a single shit. Yet all they do is criticize and criticize. They hurl words that abuses you mentally. Yes, words is enough to kill. Kill you emotionally and mentally. They are deadly weapons. They don't really care, how the fuck you feel. They exist for a reason. For karma to happen. They don't talk reason, they're not human. Shame on them, they don't live by principles. They roam around the Earth like animals. They make me paranoid. Paranoid of the word 'friends'. They walk silently and gives you deadly snares and words like arrows behind your backs. Yet they look so graceful, so perfect right in front of you. Fuck them. Fuck you, too. You who scold me dumb, you who scold me stupid. What doesn't kill me, makes me stronger. And you, you useless piece of shit, don't kill me. No. For what I did in the past, I was too naive. And how you scolded me now, 'stupid' for being naive. Thank you. Because you